Today was my due date. I took the day off of work and made no plans. I woke up and just let my mind and heart do whatever it wanted. I laid in bed, dusted off some of the miscarriage books I received and desperately thumbed through searching for anything on due dates. Out of … Continue reading Finally Seeing My Son
It's been over 4 months. We are still breathing, we are smiling and we are laughing. Most of all we are hopeful. But this month, things have been dark, really dark. My thoughts have included everything from 'what's my purpose' to 'why me', to 'ill do anything to hold him one more time' and I … Continue reading The Impending Due Date
I knew shortly after coming home from the hospital with empty arms and an empty womb that I needed to heal. I knew that I needed to find things that could help me through this process. So I started planting flowers and herbs. I dusted off my yoga mat. I went hiking. I colored in coloring … Continue reading What I Learned About Support Group
I've hit a crossroads in this journey. Do I bow out and gracefully walk away from publicly sharing our loss? Or do I push forward and continue on my quest to bring awareness to the 1 in 4? My private side wants to go the easy way out, just be done. Continue to grieve in … Continue reading To Give Up or To Push On
I recently found an email in my 'drafts' folder that has validated my motherhood status. For those women that have miscarried their first child, a big struggle is feeling non relevant as a mother amongst her peers. Especially when the ever so popular condolence phrase is "at least it happened early". What not talking about … Continue reading A Response To “At Least It Happened Early”
